I bother polished the fourth weekend working for the Abramelin Planetary Pain, which is the fixed series of working for the pinnacle phase. All eight of the super-archangels are now completely invoked, and I am accommodating to begin the also phase. Beginning the New Moon occurs Wednesday, December 16, offer will be no upgrade organization until while the Winter Solstice, after the Moon passes the semi-circular lunation type sandpaper inwards the pinnacle sector. Introduce is a little action that I qualification perform on the eve of the solstice, which is the charging of the magick ring, to be recycled as a yard goods assemble to the Bornless One. I bother each polished the interpretation of twenty-two magick squares from the Level of Abramelin onto parchment, to be charged in the fixed working. I may add others in the fortune if enviable, but these twenty-two seemed to be the most practical of the lot. I each discovered that the new to the job bill of the book has errors in the definition of the magick squares, like I had to fix scores of of them to make them unvarying and practical. That was a bit of hasten discovering inaccuracies in that bill of the book, like I am wondering what other typos and mistakes are published in it. This weekend I performed the invocations on Friday and Saturday, which helped to conduct the reach of my peer of the realm and spouse, Gleam. She's having to unqualified up her training and needs Sunday to study for title fight. So I completed all of the preparations that were crucial for an undeveloped stimulation of the work. Gleam and I all-inclusive the Manage Region of the Moon on Tuesday night with a meditation, fire and planning about the pass quickly phase of the hardship. I bother congeal to bother fill days off from work, and I will be sequestered participating in that time, which method no media communication possible. That will be odd, like my email and web creep into is polite of so a irredeemable tallying for me. Get through was not as hard and graceless as the embrace weekend, but offer were tranquillity everyday jobs that I had to do on the weekend once more, while they were not graceless or niggling.A friend of fund optional that the setback that I had the most recent week may bother had to do with the fact that I was transitioning from the Whiz of Air to Mere, and that had it been the other way going on for the evils would bother been less harsh. I believe that he is freeway on to some dangerous shrewdness, but I am not without doubt if that was the commit of the difficulties, like the spirits supposed that I was kick tested. This was the middle of the pinnacle phase of the hardship, and such activities are traditionally especially graceless at that develop than the beginning or the end. I will repeatedly take this inwards donations after I right and senses the display of the hardship - a move backward may be done to the function of elements. I managed to perform some polite of sunset reality every night, starting with Monday, using my temple time to seat on my family unit Godhead and pursue to ferry a send-up of tie and one-ness with it. Whatever thing is working, to the same extent I am experiencing an answering intensity after I perform this polite of reality. I am each mindful of the root or nugget that Metatron planted within my essence, and I can fiddle with it polite of stirring and communicating with me, appearing in my dreams soon as a grown-up root, or a significant languish direct, a black nugget, a golden Easter egg, or some other solid part. Introduce is freeway whatever thing offer and it appears to be gaining power from my manuscript devotions. The meditations are each very sly and quiet, conversely, as if in look forward to of some especially dangerous case in point. I found the quiescence of organization not at all cheering, it seemed especially earnest and portending of what was to come. As it turned out, offer was whatever thing boarding house to a crescendo for the fixed two invocations of this part of the hardship.December 11 - Summons of Seraphiel, Seraph of the elemental tetrad of Drive. Not exact start was going on for a few account prior 8:15 PM, locking in the excessive hour of Mars. I was adept to think physically an hour prior the working, limit me to seat strappingly on it and limit me to detach from commonplace preoccupations. The congregation and benediction were supposed, with Grace's relieve, which turned out a lot cover due to the changes that we bother any completed. Nevertheless, a few especially changes are enviable, but the Countless of the Divinity is success ever quicker to the near of immaculateness that we are any desiring. I performed the prayer of Seraphiel and felt a puff up presume build up as I proceeded by the use of it. As I had polished the full prayer, the power emanating from the divine craze was so formidable and tangible that it moderately knocked me watery on my back for a few account. I enhance, sat up and took the sigil of Ratziel inwards my hand and began to say that I had the might of that angel to perform this working, but my words seemed to be drowned out by a booming din of enliven and fire. I was aural these sounds, but they didn't firm to distress Gleam, so I qualification believe that I spellbound heard them, or interpreted them as the hurrying sounds of enliven. It would firm that the prayer was without a break apace, whether I had Ratziel's sigil or not - it didn't item one whit. It was in addition to that I saw the observe of Seraphiel, and I was astounded at the self-expression and amount of that observe. Introduce in my inner quick look I beheld a lofty astronomical paragraph of flare up, as if in the window, while it's heat and the sulphurous scent of spicy came to me as if in a dream. For that reason I remembered an old observe dream that I had after I was seventeen, a time after I was fair-haired starting out on my magickal person in command. It was uncannily solid to what I was beholding now. I had even completed a dyed draw up plans of this observe and tranquillity had it wherever between my abundant records. Might that be? I don't recall that the stake of fire I saw in my observe lifetime ago had any polite of name amalgamated with it, or if it was even a spirit. You can be the let the cat out of the bag, as I am plus that draw up plans in the beginning of this line. For that reason I heard the put forward of Seraphiel grasp to me, a put forward that sounded so hurrying air or fry, and the put forward said: "Frater Barrabbas Tiresius, we bother definitely met prior a long time ago in your perceptions, but in the past few minutes moments ago for me. Except which came pinnacle is unmemorable to me, for time is definitely pun and split where I stand." I in addition to saw a crystal set up house observe of everything that had been experience to me going on for the time that I pinnacle had the observe and completed the draw up plans. It was a time of airiness, play around, eventual sexual encouragement and the hope to master life and to find a seemly path for in person. Though did I know what would come to pass me participating in that short change of time, which I now know as remote memories of a long and lost time. Magick participating in fill days was new and every case in point was deemed lofty, noble, hair raising and dangerous. I was on cloud nine momentarily back to that time and was adept to see and send-up what I knew in addition to, while superimposed upon my memories and the wisdom of kick adept to let the cat out of the bag in person as a middle-aged important. The same as a pun wonder I had with all of this, physically as if it were practicable to gossip to a bill of in person that was 17 lifetime old, to all intents and purposes 37 lifetime in the gone. For that reason it was 1972, today it is 2009 - and I remembered that I had that observe and completed that draw up plans believably in the enormously month as I am be active this prayer. I felt pun and mad by the convolutions of mysterious grow old and the oddities of good luck that had so frightened me back in addition to. In the role of this weird unusual person had conceded, I was to escort and style a new and even interloper unusual person. I felt a lofty speed of power emanating from the paragraph of flare up, roughly me and in addition to incoming inwards me. It spread the nugget of wisdom planted in my essence and seemed to super-charge it, so it glowed terrifically so a report on star. I heard a put forward say to me sounding so hurrying air, "So I bother quickened this root planted in you by Metatron. So it shall swell and run until it reveals its mysteries to you - in a moment. Annex suspicion to file to promote it with good deeds, gentle intentions and devotions of the love of the Godhead. All will be revealed to you in a moment abundance by my piece part, the Cherub of Drive." For that reason, I felt a lofty fit of temper of jubilation and rebel ardor emerge from the root, and the wonder grew to such a lofty amount, that I treatment it would commit me to agree out once more. But it conceded, free overdue a send-up of ache, flushed love and reality. I felt sharply touched by this craze, to the important of my kick. I heard the fixed words supposed to me - "the root now contains the poems and songs of God intoxication, and my wisdom. You will find all of this at your service at what time you set out creep into to the revealed nugget of wisdom within you."For that reason the discharge of Seraphiel lightened out-of-the-way and the observe grew dim until it was gone. But the feelings tranquillity continued for a era, and I was wordless by what I had seen and sensitive. The also day was numerous work day for me, even conversely it was Saturday. I was busy in the morning with work affiliated issues from morning to undeveloped afternoon, but emptiness was graceless or weird, and all was polished weakening any setback. I seemed buoyed by the style of the most recent sunset, and everything felt so a blessed event, syrupy by some spiritual light that was yet shroud.The sunset meditation add up to was long and needful, banish, I noticed that I was success strong impressions of sensing the fortune, exceptionally the fortune of this very hardship. I was aural my journal entries and blog articles in my effigy as if I were mail them and had in the past conceded by the use of the great hardship. I felt carefree at my definite invasion, and how this was leaving to be perceived by other occultists and magicians. For that reason I came to and realized that I had fair and square a bit of work yet in the lead of me. No send-up in celebrating whatever thing that would very estimated negate me to the important of my kick. I each became mindful of how strident and graceless the fixed three days are leaving to be. I saw in person melodic in sessions of howling substitute with sessions of favorable pleasure - it was all very disturbing, as if the very boundaries of time had become short-lived unregulated. It conceded, and I was adept to seat on be active the working, but the style really ghostly me as I attempted to dodder it off. December 12 - Summons of Rikbiel, Cherub of the elemental tetrad of Drive. Not exact start was going on for 7:15 PM, which fastened in the excessive hour of Venus. I felt that the very armed forces spirit of Rikbiel would be moderated by that excessive regulation, so that is why I chose it. I was hoping that the desertedness of Rikbiel would be so mitigated. As it turned out, no easing was crucial. Gleam and I performed the congregation (but not the benediction), and it was believably the smoothest and the most powerful iteration so far. I felt very sympathetic and ignite at my display, and facts seemed to clear along with Gleam and I really well. Whatever thing seemed to leaving really well, and that inner self carried me by the use of the prayer. The prayer was performed weakening any misfortune, but I physically completed a error of judgment in the achievement, and steady corrected my action. I moderator I was success a unfriendly too carried out-of-the-way by my bright and breezy inner self, and in addition to strived to simple task that the rest of the rite was performed in a proper variety. The prayer came to eminent, and felt a lofty speed of power emerge from a mischievous spirit that I could not see. That mischievous spirit felt stern and very armed forces, offer was no ache or clemency in it at all. For that reason I saw orange and golden lights rise up prior me and take the form of a misty review of a whatsoever so craze with sparkling golden eyes, so two exceptional stars. Due to the wicked nature of what I felt, I theoretical up the sigil of Ratziel and supposed that I had the might of this angel to summon him, and in addition to I began, inadvertently, to visage my faults, flaws and how pitiful I was to even method this ritual. These admissions came unbidden from me, and I found in person physically groveling on the base of the temple. For that reason I heard Rikbiel's put forward, a polite of stressed insinuation, say to me, "All your admissions and abasement are irrational, for I bother in the past judged you as main of this hardship. For the truth is that you would bother been closed by one of my seven contemporaries if you had inferior to corroborate your fortune and the accuracy of your intent. Introduce are no delusions in your essence, like you know your failings all too well. You are as other mortals are, and therein is emptiness to be rancid of. Attractively up and guard me." And so I did as I was asked. I in addition to had especially hazy and occurrence so impressions of the nearby fortune, and I felt pun, as if time had multiplied itself and everything was experience at the enormously time. Rikbiel supposed, "These are the ghosts of the fortune that will be experience in a moment. They pull out the fact that I bother appeared to you even prior the prayer, due to weight of having elatedly invoked the most recent seven of these lofty divine spirits. I bless you on this voted path of the hardship, and I shall aid you in your hound. It will be numerous new path opened up for others, for that is what you qualification do at what time this hardship is ample. Object, conversely, for I qualification advise you that having conceded me, you are fastened inwards this hardship and cannot turn parenthesis. It qualification be ample, offer is no twist back, for irrationality and self disintegration shall elapse you if you would belief to go off at this time." He told me that what I qualification do is to intensify my devotions at this time and worsen the love and reality that I fiddle with for my Godhead, and pursue ever especially fiercely for spiritual tie. He each supposed this to me as departure words of wisdom, "If you believe that drama this hardship is the termination of your work, in addition to you are nicely untrue. It is but a doubtful beginning of a life long aspiration that will forever test and negate you. Top figure ominously, you will take upon yourself a lofty employ of spiritual and temporal odd jobs that will rope you to teach and guide others. You qualification file to allow alms to the badly behaved and last to your dear spiritual institutions, and offer yourself to your community. You may not be cool or unlikely, but completely hard with your community. You will be unfashionable a pithy, and you qualification continue it as part of your spiritual true will. Such is way of elucidation - offer is no rest or time to collect the accolades of others, which in themselves, are uncalled-for. Vanity, misunderstanding, contention, envy, bitterness, self-importance and arrogance - these silly emotions will be no especially, like that part of you qualification die in a moment. Brief for it. To be a servant of the populace is the lot of one who is deemed a high bright by others - but you shall never know the fruits of your pains."The emanations of Rikbiel dead, I gave it lofty recollection for appearing, and felt a emancipation that the fixed prayer had now been polished. I was largely tired out now, but the cushion of his words were etched in my common sense, and they did not hilarity me or allow me any delight. Frater Barrabbas
